The longing for God is a vast and empty darkness. Its cold and unsettling. It picks at my edges even when I don't want to consider it. The silence is unnerving, rising up to crush me. Sometimes the longing for God's presence makes it hard to breathe.
When I feel this way I forget or dismiss the history I have with God. I forget all the times and all the ways I've been saved. I forget how God always calls me back. I forget all the times he's spoken to me, the times when I've needed guidence and he plainly showed the way.
I know that God is redemptive, compassionate, and good. I know that god speaks truth and is faithful. I know that he has a sense of humor and that he weeps.
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I love how God knows each of us so deeply, our sin nature and our redeemed nature, and loves us through all of it. I love how the Bible tells us that even if we don't feel Him near, He is IN us. I love how He illumines us with His Holy Spirit, enfolds us with His Word, waters us so we'll be like a spring garden, nourishes us with His body (seems weird doesn't it) and that Christ is the rock that is the living water that quenches our thirst (all from scripture and recent Bible study). It is good to remember how He has been faithful in the past. Do you know the Tommy Walker song "We will Remember"? It's a good song - you can get it off itunes. I also like "He knows My Name" by same singer :-)
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